time never waits.

its been months since I last blogged. Im sorry I couldn't find time, as I am very active in tweeting. So sorry.

Time is moving so fast and if you didn't realize yet, its almost to the ending of 2012. This year I might be 16, but my mind isn't.

I am not ready to grow older. I am not ready to be a 17 year old teenager which his life will be filled with misery and stress and hardness of Life. 16 was a very tough age for me to cope with myself. I don'g like when it is happening to me. Leaving the school, it's almost taking me there to that very moment. I feel like I am being one person whom his life will be very miserable and not doing the best.

Like I said, It feels like it was just yesterday I was with my kindergarten teacher, doing our small kids activities and returning home in the afternoon. I feel like it was just few days back to where I was registering myself in standard 1, where my mother was next to me and waited for me to end my very first day of school. Non of these days had me stressed and I have no finding hardness in life. as a small child, I knew nothing. even I asked for McDonalds Happy Meal toys from my mother who came back from work. I was a small kid. Yes I was.

To me, Life is so short. in a blink of an eye I couldnt turn back time to where I was.an innocent kid who knew nothing about Life actually. I miss the old time. I miss the old me. I can't stop thinking about my small me. I want my old life where I had no hardness in Life, and everything I asked for granted. I want to be a kid again..

TODAY...I am 16. 16 is already very old fo me. I am going to be 17, 17 in a very short time. the year is ending, so as my miserable 16 years old age. Being a big and matured person is so hard. If I did any wrong, I could have a scolding right in front of my face. it just slams me. Never a kid received that. Never. I miss the never in me, saying Yes every time on every thing. Now, No is an option for me to choose and make choices in my life.

Please......i want the old times. Please....i want the old me..